That feeling of loneliness is really killing me. It's really the worst feeling in this world. I hate this feeling. I want to get rid of it but how?
Dinner was great. Literally. For the first time in a long while, my mom actually cooked. The thing that ruined that yummy dinner? Her boyfriend had to join us for dinner. Wtf? Why can't it be just the two of us? Why must he join? The food was great but I couldn't taste anything. I was sulking through out the whole dinner. I just wanted to be away from that table.. as far as possible.
I really hate him. If it wasn't for him, my mom wouldn't be like this. Everything would still be the same, wouldn't it? Just wasted a whole load of tears again. Why am I always crying? Why can't I become stronger?
All my friends are getting ready for Xmas, thinking of what to wear and where to go. Me? Just gonna stay at home. What's new? I'm always alone. No one bothers.
Happy Birthday Scooby. You turn 11 months old. You're the only one who's always there for me. I love you.
Posted by ang3l-ham at 4:00 AM
